Below are the 10 most recent journal entries recorded in niko_chua's LiveJournal:

Tuesday, January 2nd, 2007
6:24 am	death You never know when you will die...its either next week, tommorow, today, the next hour, next minute or even adter I write this...I just learned that my friend +Michael Ang just died this January 1...damn...he killed himself...I was told that he hung himself in his house during Dec.31,2006...he was my tutor mate for Godsakes and he is dead...I just realized how life is so precious and it is so unreal that he is no longer in this world...fuck fuck....grabe parang panaginip wala na ang kaibigan ko...he must have been lost and never saw the light again...I used to be like that...lost...and I was saved by the people that I loved...my family, barkada and friends...I am so thankful for them but I am sad that Mike didn't have the opportunity that I had...the opportunity that I had to live for something...he must have been tired...sayang talga...may he rest in peace....God please accept your sinful son in your embrace he did not realize his mistake...he was just a lost soul just like everyone and he did not find his way back to you..+Mike Ang died dec.31,2006 now he rests in Arlington funeral homes...I am going tonyt and pay my respects (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 9th, 2006
8:17 am	I'm pissed Sigh..I'm tired of my life...i feel like being pulled around five different places at once...and its hard. just today I realized that it was my mother's birthday and i didnt have a gift for her tsk tsk...well I bought a gift for her eventually..but the point is I forgot to buy her a gift and this was because im really really tired...I realized that im pressured by my dad in doing things especially things that involve legal matters and business matters...its hard really and im no expert in it but he still keeps pressuring me...regarding pressure, just tonight as I was going home from my ALTP assignment my dad called my cellphone to tell me to commute to THE FORT because they were there for some eating thing...argggghhh...damn it I was near my house already and he tells me this...f**k I don't even know how to f***ing go to Taguig..T*NG IN* nakakaburat...im fakin tired and he gives this shit on the cellphone for Godsakes..sigh so what can I do I was commanded to commute to the fort....so i went home first to leave my gift for my mother and well I went on my F***ing journey...my big problem was that I didnt even know how to get there through commuting...my dad and my brothers kept calling me to tell to go to Ayala so that my brother will pick me up...to hell with Ayala I can go to the damn the Fort my self...so i told that ill go myself since i wanted to walk anyway to cool my heels...damn im still pissed...I took the bus in Ortigas which was far from my house and you guessed it I walked going there...then i took another bus in Edsa to Guadalupe...in which I walked along to edsa to an oerpass to get to a jeep terminal on the other side....damn it damn it.....FUUUUUUCCCCCCCCKKKKK....grrrrrrrrrrr.......I still remember those moments and kept telling myself the food should be fucking worth it for my trouble....well it was my moms birthday but still my dad should have been considerate enough since I came from y work and I wasnt even notified of this fuccking plan...fuck...I arrived taguig but I was dropped off in MARKET MARKET!!!! What the fuck...now you wonder how I came to the FORT...well I walked...and it was far...grabe by car malayo na well panu na paglakad...SHIIITTT....when I arrived I was so pissed that I didnt feel talking with anybody and they gave me food...they kept on trying to entertain me but I was pissed...i didnt even hear them...why do i deserve this bullshit...I try to be a good kid and they fuckin give me pressuring bullshit like this...when I ate I didnt taste anything...tangine WTF...walang lasa para sa akin....it wasnt worth it...damn...i was suckered...eventhough the food there I was supposed to enjoy...in my normal unpissed mode I would have loved it there but this time I lost the feel of eating...I no longer felt anything after that...I didnt have any reaction for the whole evening...it wasnt worth it...wasnt worth it...wasnt worth it...although it was my moms birthday...so maybe it was worth it going there for her...but my dad kept appeasing or appealing that the food was worth it...it wasnt...it didnt taste anything...nothing at all...Le souffle etc...tsk tsk...I was suckered...what a pissing turn of events...sobrang sawa na ako sawang sawa na ako...kahit girlfriend ko walang nagawa sa nangyayari sakin...I want to drop everything and just go somewhere where I could be alone...alone where no one would pressure you..no one to drop bullshit on you...bullshit...sobrang parang ayaw ko na pumunta sa ibang mga gathering...parang pati sa barkada ko ayaw ko muna sumama...im tired...im tired...im tired...I was suckered.. Current Mood: enraged (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 29th, 2006
6:57 am	My hobbit name!! Reginard Proudneck of Tuckborough...This is my hobbit name...Grabe wala na akong magawa so nagsearh akong hobbit name generator. Wala lang Astig. (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 22nd, 2006
7:34 pm	Back from Tagaytay....Falling Stars Shucks kakabalik ko lang from tagaytay!! wahooo ang saya sobra nung trip and I got to know our new barkada member Val.:) anyways the most signifiant event nung trip is we saw lots of shooting stars nung gabi. Grabe ang ganda nila and also ganda ng constellations. :) I havent had this much fun in a long time grabe. It was really great and dami pa nmng memorable shots in the trip. well peace out. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 10th, 2006
9:22 pm	Life is like that sometimes Today I just found out that we failed the final defense for marketing...sigh just as I thought..actually im not surprised or even sad at all for failing because I already anticipated this even before the day of the defense...Sigh well at least I accepted that it was inevitable that we would fail since well...I had "them" as groupmates...tsk tsk stupid me I should have changed groups early on If only I could have seen this...well enough about the "what Ifs" and just move one the grade is already there and there is nothing I can do about it..well too bad for my deans list group mates since they get 0.4 for the 20 percent of our grade...as for me, life goes on because I shouldn't think about this one failure since I would be enountering even more grave mistakes as life goes on...my mindset right now is that the grade is not the measure of your performance in the future but it is what you do after college that measures it...As I say: " Laban lang ng laban hanggang hindi ka na makalaban.", "Never say die until you see that there is nothing that you can do anymore."... I still believe that with hard work and dedication to my work I would succeed...this one bump only drives me to excel in the things that I do...Tommorrow I would just smile and thank the Lord that he gave me the chance to realize that I have the ability to lead and do better than others; I just need to focus and strive for something higher...:) (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 4th, 2006
11:23 pm	The start Of a WAR!!!! This day sucks as in big time!!!! Grabe after ko maligo tumawag isang groupmate hinahanap ako tapos pinapapunta na ako agad ng skul!!! WTF!! Eh potek 9am pa lang and the meeting was 10am pa...tinarayan pa ako F**K!! damn it!! Anyways wala pa yan nung pagdating ko sa skul, grrr pagdating ko sa Mateo Ricci pinaalis nila ako agad papuntang Capitol Medical Center!! P***ng Ina!!! Arggghhhh!!! Nung narinig ko un, kulang na lang magwala ako sa Mateo Ricci sa sobrang burat. So anyway, to appease myself and release anger I went to the ACMG room and boy did I blow up!! Shuks sa sobrang inis ko nakabali ako ng 5 ballpens(well they were empty...no worries)sila Romee, Cat, Mai and the others were trying to appease me..pero sobrang inis na ako kasi ang tanga tanga talaga ng groupmates ko!!! arggghh...so Inefficiet!! so ayun inis na inis ako hangang pagbalik ko from Capitol!! ok naman nung medyo mga 530pm kasi naglalaro na kami ng cards sa room me,gin and mikhail.:) hahahaha Nung mga 10Pm naman, nilabas ko ung car ko tapos un nasiraan ako sa gas station kasi mahina na ung battery. Hindi kya magstart ung car...what a bad day....shucks...tapos nagtulak pa ako nung car para magstart siya tpos ayun...Anyways hopefully tommorrow maganda na yung day....BBQ selling day bukas..kya lang no rice...sori guys.. Yun lang..PEACE out!! Current Mood: angry (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 2nd, 2006
9:08 pm	God must have seen that the Tiger is fit to be the king... Today...we lost to UST it was hard since we nearly won but alas it would not be. Goodbye JC, Doug, Mackie it has been a great run. Thanks for giving back the hope of a championship to our school. GO Ateneo!!! Many people cried after the game and many also cheered all in all it was an event that is to be remembered. I never imagined that I would get to taste the feeling of a championship in my 4 years of school life until today. It was such an exhiliarating experience but then it was over in an instant after Jojo Duncil shot the game winning jump shot. My heart broke and I was left speechless and sad....:( After the ceremonies, UST cheered Go! Ateneo while Ateneo cheered Go Uste!! It was the jam session!!! hahahaha It felt nice to hear that even after the game there was no personal grudges but only sportsmanship. After we went out of the Araneta Coliseum, I didnt really feel like talking to anybody since I felt sad losing the chance of a championship. But something wonderful happened, the Blue Babble band shook hands with the Yellow Jackets and eventually a second Jam session was in order. The two sides cheered FEU cheers, UE cheers, NU cheers, La Salle cheers and of course Adamson cheers. It was a fun experience since it is the first time I'e seen two pep squads jive together and it felt so natural to be jamming with them. Anyways, although we lost I think the babble gained something and that is camaraderie with the UST pep squad.:) Peace Out (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 1st, 2006
10:56 pm	Hay... Ang dami kong ginawa for today. Madami akong ginawa for my dad since he needed my help in the business so ayun gumawa ako ng mga standees and streamer designs kanina. Tpos tinapos ko ung promo booth namin for marketing and ung mga parts na kailangan kong gawin for marketing. Anyways..Tommorow is WAR!! ATENEO Vs. UST. Game time. Peace out (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 30th, 2006
11:14 pm	After the dust of the second wave settles... Hay...we lost today against UST in the 2nd game of the Uaap Championship. Shucks halatang ung UST ang nagdictate ng tempo nung game. Hands down to UST.:) Anyways after the game, I was tired as in grabe d na ako nagsasalita. I dont know I just felt tired and sad after the game and I just realized that Babble was no longer fun for me....sigh I dont know maybe the luster of babble just sizzled away. I also think that I found a new home in campus...maybe another organization....hmm we'll see... (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 26th, 2006
10:38 pm	The day I started selling Bar-B-Q Today, I came to the room to relax and well also sell my products. I was pretty confident that they would like it but I never expected to hae such positive reactions from my customers.:) Anyways I was really glad that I was of service to others since they were satisfied. The only problem that I encountered was I did not hae enough for other people well...by tom I'll be bringing more.:) All in all ok naman ung araw. (2 Comments |Comment on this)